on living spontaneously

there's beauty in the unknown

i just read a post here on substack titled what good is a writer that doesn’t write.

what good am i?

i made a note to myself weeks ago that the next time i would write, i wouldn’t write about me. about my experiences, about how i feel because there really isn’t much to say and i no longer want to be selfish.

but every time i sit down to put words together, i’m putting my own thoughts together so maybe it has to be about me, at least for now.

i’ve spent a great amount of time this year thinking about productivity. keyword: thinking.

i’ve mentioned before that i do a lot of thinking and very little action, and that is changing.

there was a time everyone was so obsessed with productivity. how to do this and do that and be efficient and put things in order. we spent time making plans and creating to do lists.

i was there and i think still am. but we’ve changed, some of us. we’re ticking things off the lists and I love to see it.

recently, i started doing. sometimes, i just do stuff and write it down later so i can feel the satisfaction of ticking it off. with substack, i made no plans of posting here. it wasn’t on my list. but for the sake of ticking things off, i’ll put it there and tick it right after. oh the joy.

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with my devotion, i've come to notice that whenever i make a note to myself to pray before bed, after classes or before i go out, i don’t do it.

the best times i've had with God are the unplanned ones. like “oh there’s my Bible, let me read it." i end up learning a lot from that time. or “I should talk to God now.” then i feel better right after.

now i’m not saying routines are bad and to do lists are from the devil. oh no, never. i love routines, really. but many times, the best things that happen to us are the unplanned ones. the ones that happened carelessly, without overthinking, without warning.

this is why we should allow ourselves to experience things. that is something I’m learning myself.

we don’t always have to do things a certain way, or act in a certain manner. switch it up a little. routines can sometimes get overwhelming and can make you feel like you’re not moving forward. the important thing about them is that they give structure, make sure that you always know where you’re headed. but there are times you have to branch out, as I’m doing now.

to answer the question, what good am i?

i can say i’m good now because i have put my thoughts together for an audience to read.

i am a writer that writes and i will not subject my writing to a to-do list. this is something i love a lot and it deserves all of me, not just my list.

so my friends, make lists but allow yourself to live outside them. you’ll never know what good is out there unless you go outside. for those of you that are going outside already, please take me with you.

i’ll put words together again soon. until then, byeee !